She's elusive
An apparition that don't want to be exclusive
She's always making me feel like I'm gonna lose it
I'm gonna lose it

She got excuses
Always leave me on the back foot tryna prove it
Making me think why the fuck I'd even choose this
Why'd I choose this?

Oh, we push and pull like we lose it all
And she takes my hand, makes me comfortable
But behind those eyes, hidden deep inside
Is a darker shade of what she's tryna hide

Sometimes she's here, sometimes she's smoke
Sometimes she's yes, often she's no
Sometimes she's left but she's always right
Sometimes I'm enough but I wasn't that night
Sometimes she's healed, sometimes she's broke
Sometimes I feel like she's a ghost
When she gets high she stays on the low
I just say, you go up in smoke
Up in smoke

She's divisive
She's always got me where she wants me, how she likes it
She's always hidden, always suffering in private
That's how she likes it

She ain't the quiet type
Every room she walk into the place alights
Same routine almost every night
Every night

Oh, we push and pull like we lose it all
And she takes my hand, makes me comfortable
But behind those eyes, hidden deep inside
Is a darker shade of what she's tryna hide

Sometimes she's here, sometimes she's smoke
Sometimes she's yes, often she's no
Sometimes she's left but she's always right
Sometimes I'm enough but I wasn't that night
Sometimes she's healed, sometimes she's broke
Sometimes I feel like she's a ghost
When she gets high she stays on the low
I just say, you go up in smoke
Up in smoke

Up in smoke
Up in smoke

Oh, we push and pull like we lose it all
And she takes my hand, makes me comfortable
But behind those eyes, hidden deep inside
Is a darker shade of what she's tryna hide

Sometimes she's here, sometimes she's smoke
Sometimes she's yes, often she's no
Sometimes she's left but she's always right
Sometimes I'm enough but I wasn't that night
Sometimes she's healed, sometimes she's broke
Sometimes I feel like she's a ghost
When she gets high she stays on the low
I just say, you go up in smoke