All along I was scared to breathe
So afraid that the world was gonna leave me behind
In the dark, I refused to see
That I was barely alive
It's such a bitter pill to swallow
But I learned to call it reality
I didn't wanna wake up, I didn’t wanna wake up
I didn't wanna wake up and miss the misery

All along I refused to believe
Paranoid that my fear already left me to die
In the end, when I stopped, I could see
That I was feeding the lie
Caught in between another time and place
When no one cared to know my name
Feels like it's never enough
When is it ever enough?

I build it up just to tear it back down again
Fighting fate only to surrender, only to surrender

I'm the worst at letting go
To the scars I loved the most
Will they bury me, bury me now?
Running from the worst in me
Left me broken, wondering
Will they bury me, bury me now?

It's such a bitter pill to swallow
But I learned to call it reality
I didn't wanna wake up, I didn't wanna wake up
I didn't wanna wake up
It's such a bitter pill to swallow
But I learned to call it reality
I didn't wanna wake up, I didn't wanna wake up
I didn't wanna wake up and miss the misery
I hold the key to escaping my reality
I hold the key to creating my identity

I build it up just to tear it back down again
Fighting fate only to surrender, only to surrender

I'm the worst at letting go
To the scars I loved the most
Will they bury me, bury me now?
Running from the worst in me
Left me broke and wondering
Will they bury me, bury me now?
Will they bury me, bury me now?
They won't bury me, bury me now